I feel discusting. So discusting. I feel used.
I feel like my heart is being ripped out of my chest. I just want to cry. I feel horrible. Why does everyone use me? I try to give my love to everyone but all I ever get is frowns instead of hugs.
I will never fit in into anything. Ironic how the person u thought that would hurt you for the last time hurts u the worst in just a matter of seconds. I feel like I've been stabbed repeatly in the back. I tell myself so many lies in order to try to make myself feel better.
One can only isolate for so long.
My mom told me the other day about how she felt like comiting suicide. She said to me "when u feel like u just bother everyone, and no one needs you anymore, u just feel like dying."
I wanted to reach her, hug her, cry on her shoulder and tell her how much I can relate.
I can't.
All my self loathing is welling up again.
I thought things where about to change when everything starts to crash down again.
My bedroom walls are crimsom just like my hands.
Who's sleeping on my side of the bed?
Have u ever cried so hard? You just died.
And I can see him now. I just want to forget and let go of all the love the joy, the pain. and now I kiss it goodbye. It ended fatally. There he goes again. he'll fuck you just for the taste. I just wish that I could replace all the memories of what makes my blood run cold. I say goodbye to what we had. he came and went, I gnawed through my lip, Each sob's a reason to say goodbye. Sometimes when you're holding on, you'll never see the light.
Gazed upon with dead lovers eyes.
Why do people want to hurt me? What's so fun in seeing my pain? Is it funny to see somebody suffering? Swimming in my own pool of lies I create for myself?
I don't know in what to belive. I don't have anything to hold onto. All I have is hope to think things will get better. Ill pick the splinters from under my fingernails and try to move on. It seems like time is still and I can't move.
i feel like alot like this song.
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I feel like my heart is being ripped out of my chest. I just want to cry. I feel horrible. Why does everyone use me? I try to give my love to everyone but all I ever get is frowns instead of hugs.
I will never fit in into anything. Ironic how the person u thought that would hurt you for the last time hurts u the worst in just a matter of seconds. I feel like I've been stabbed repeatly in the back. I tell myself so many lies in order to try to make myself feel better.
One can only isolate for so long.
My mom told me the other day about how she felt like comiting suicide. She said to me "when u feel like u just bother everyone, and no one needs you anymore, u just feel like dying."
I wanted to reach her, hug her, cry on her shoulder and tell her how much I can relate.
I can't.
All my self loathing is welling up again.
I thought things where about to change when everything starts to crash down again.
My bedroom walls are crimsom just like my hands.
Who's sleeping on my side of the bed?
Have u ever cried so hard? You just died.
And I can see him now. I just want to forget and let go of all the love the joy, the pain. and now I kiss it goodbye. It ended fatally. There he goes again. he'll fuck you just for the taste. I just wish that I could replace all the memories of what makes my blood run cold. I say goodbye to what we had. he came and went, I gnawed through my lip, Each sob's a reason to say goodbye. Sometimes when you're holding on, you'll never see the light.
Gazed upon with dead lovers eyes.
Why do people want to hurt me? What's so fun in seeing my pain? Is it funny to see somebody suffering? Swimming in my own pool of lies I create for myself?
I don't know in what to belive. I don't have anything to hold onto. All I have is hope to think things will get better. Ill pick the splinters from under my fingernails and try to move on. It seems like time is still and I can't move.
i feel like alot like this song.
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today i joined the photography class at newport harbor
i also met this one girl from the show newport harbor.
she sits next to me.
anyways watch the show tonight.
i havent watched it since i dont ever watch television. hardly ever. mostly never. never ever. sometimes.
im also very sick.
not the cool sick but the sick ill sick.
this video is so straight edge.
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